MASIH ADA YANG SAYANG 2011

okay..related to last post..

my boss don't allow me to quit..

so..i still here..continue with my job..



i can say our project successful...

it was memorable experience for me...

at first i'm gonna write many things about the event..but don't know why, i feel speechless

now...erm..maybe later i'll talk about it

am I guilty..or not??

OK...now...actually I've just cried when I post email to my friend...

here goes the story..I join this one college project just want to help and as my support to my besties...

from the first time I'd already say that I can do all the work..but to make me attend meeting or stay in college during weekend is impossible...but she agreed as she put me as treasurer in the organization as she said my role not so important for attending meeting compare to other post..

yeah..what i predict before this, all true....no..it is worst....

i still managed to do my job beautifully..but it seems that I AM NEEDED IN ALMOST ALL MEETING....what the heck? ohh..I really hate meeting....

but now..seem I have make it into big issue..the project advisor looking for me and label me as "not committed tresurer" and don't give commitment in doing my job...okay...i agree...maybe I'm guilty for not turning on myself to meeting..but please..I know the rest of my job, and i'm doing it without hesitation. I still can say that i'm better than others who love to attend meeting and grab people attention but don't even care about their responsibility..I'm far so good compared to them.

but now i officially turn myself out from the organization although the project is near..as what i know, i've done the best in my part..then let Allah do and arrange the rest...

to my besties, khairunnisa bt mohd ali..thank you for trusting me and let me work with u.but I'm sorry as I always put u in trouble.sorry dear.

to my best besties a.k.a my roomie , i know u not always agree in what i do, but u never stop me. otherwise u always respect my decision as maybe u think I know what the best for myself. Thanks a lot julia nurmalis mohd hairudin for always support me although i'm wrong..hehe..




p/s- so now i think i should struggle out in my study...=P

worst weeks ever!!!!

it's been so hard on me for this two week..i know people will not understand me..saying that i just know making excuses etc etc..but do I care?? if i'm going crazy one day, will u care about me? no, it isn't rite? so, just stay out of my life and I don't want to care about ANYTHING. I'm so TIRED.I can't hold on it ANYMORE. let me leave.FULL STOP.. i'm not u and u not me.if u can stand it, go on..but I'm not u..I'm not strong enough like u..let me go on with my own way....T.T

AHAD MALAM ISNIN...

ermmm......

malam ni ahad malam isnin....

setiap malam ahad aku mesti jadi mcm ni...


xtau mcm mana nak diungkapkan perasaan dalam hari ni...

bercampur baur...

resah ada...gelisah ada...stress ada...takut ada....xtenang pun ada.....sume ada la....

tp malam ni aku xtau...rase sgt x best...sgt x seronok...korang nak tau aku rase ape..rase nak


terus sambung cuti...xnak gi kelas....xnak jumpe org2 kat universiti tu...nak dok umah..spend

time dgn parents n family member jewk..aku x kuasa x de smgt nak jumpe semua org mahupun

nak study....


tuhan...tolongla....kenapa aku jadi mcm ni.....


kepada diriku sendiri...

ko xleh give...xsemangat mcm ni....

ko tau kan sem ni semakin mencabar...perlu fokus yg byk...

dtambah aktiviti kolej yg disertai (xbyk mana pon)..

dgn nak pikir pasal praktikal lagi......

YA ALLAH.....
HANYA KEPADA MU TEMPAT UNTUK KU MENGADU

saturday drama-cinta buta

saturday-10pm(8 january 2011)

tonight I watch malay drama at tv3 called " CINTA BUTA"

hahhaa...i love the plot...

yeah2..i admit that i love this drama as it is about chubby girl fall in love with a blind boy and

when she knows that he will undergo eye surgery, she try to diet but not succeeded.. becoz of

her low self esteem..she ask her friend to replace her place...and etc...



but what I love about this story is I agree and understand that chubby girls feeling as i'm in her

shoes and people should know why we got low self esteem..but what can I say that if every men

in this world got positive thinking or perspective of chubby girl like the man in the

drama..everyone will live happily ever after..^^

tv3- ust.amirul

9pm-friday (7 january 2011)

tonight, new drama will replace the old drama in zehra slot at TV3...

usually, friday night will full with religion-based-drama-series...

new series starting today is entitled 'USTAZ AMIRUL'

nothing much in first episode...

i'm not ASYRAF MUSLIM fan..

but in this very first episode...

one lesson I could take from it...

I realize that if we follow what our parents ask us to do as long as it is not against the syariah, INSYA ALLAH, our life will move along wth their bless and we will succeed..

dear god, u know that I always follow what my parent ask me to do as I have faith in u and I always believe that my life is better with your and their blessing...so...do bless my entire journey in this world...
amin..

touching..

thursday (6 january 2011)

today still in first week mode..

still no homework..not bz ...

at first i decided half- half either should go back home during weekend or just spend my time with my frens ...

but then..

something happen...

i don't know why but i sad with my fren that morning..

it make my heart broken..

ok..maybe u all can said that I sensitive...

but I feel sensitive bcoz before this i could do THAT thing for them..but why they can't do that for me...


suddenly..at that crucial time..i make decision to go back home that evening...

yeah..now after about 4 days I spent in my house..

i in peace mode back..

thank god...

^^

remember everyone..it is hard to find a friend that willing to share sorrowness and painfull thing with us..